“I am weary, O God; I am weary and worn out, O God. I am too stupid to be human, and I lack common sense. I have not mastered human wisdom, nor do I know the Holy One.’ (Proverbs 30:1-3 NLT)
Quite a way to start a song! Agur is not mentioned very much in scripture, so we have no hints about his nature except in the 30th Proverb; and here we see a man either with very low self- esteem or profound humility.
Reflecting on the rest of this chapter, however, Agur strikes me as a very humble servant of God. His reverence for God is evident and his knowledge of life gives the reader much food for thought.
I want to vanish in the presence of God. I want his overshadowing to disperse all my thoughts and plans into tiny pieces of light that blend with His Light so there is no difference between the two, even if only for a few precious moments. Agur accomplished this with his introduction and then he vanishes into the wisdom and teachings that followed.
That is how, in these Great and Final Days, I want to be. When I think of God, how marvelous he is and how puny and insignificant I am, the overwhelm silences all ego demands and selfish goals. I must decrease as he increases in light and love, moment to moment.
Walk in the Light as He is in the Light and let His Spirit dominate. When I try to do it with my human will, I become ‘weary and worn out’ like Agur. Then the pause and the questions…Who but God goes up to heaven and comes back down? Who holds the wind in his fists? Who wraps up the oceans in his cloak? Who has created the whole world? And who will never leave me nor forsake me? Jesus!
